"You're too BIG to go to a funeral?"

What's going on peoples? Yours' Truly has returned. Too bad its under solemn terms.

I found out late yesterday that my Godmother had died on May 2nd from cancer. I feel bad because somewhere over the last 3 to 4 years, I've fell out of contact with a lot of people. This music & entertainment thing kinda has me out of touch. I was totally prepared to go to The Vincent Tucker Radio Show tapings today and skip the funeral.

Now I now that comes across bad but I think when you look at what I've been thru, what I've overcome, you could begin to understand where I'm coming from. I've been to many funerals over the past 16 years (and I'm only 25.) After a while, you find other ways to grieve. My way, so I thought, was to go to the tapings today and do what I like to do.....entertain people.

Then, a friend I hadn't seen/heard from in so many years, sends me an email on facebook telling me about the death and the funeral today. She tells me one particular member of the family has been trying to reach me. I think I was still going to miss the funeral until I talked to my radio co-host Myskenna.

Under her direction, she said I needed to pray and think about it. After much thought, I'm going to the funeral. I didn't get to see her on my terms at least not before she died. I had no idea she had cancer. No idea she was sick.

I'm not blaming anyone else. I'm blaming me. I fell out of contact. I failed to pick up the phone and call my loved ones. I've become so encompassed in this business that I've neglected the ones that were there from the beginning.

To those affected, I apologize. Charge it to my mind, not my heart.

R.I.P. to my Godmother Shirly Joyce Turner 8/58 - 5/09.

Signing off....

Heartbreak